Well, honestly, I was speechless
By Anonymous | Updated 12/16/24(Mon)23:21:12
Well, honestly, I was speechless
When I woke up to your voice note
You told me how you'd been feeling
Let's work it out on the remix
Yeah, I don't know if you like me
Sometimes I think you might hate me
Sometimes I think I might hate you
Maybe you just wanna be me
Can't tell if you wanna see me
Falling over and failing
And you can't tell what you're feeling
I think I know how you feel
You'd always say, "Let's go out," but then you'd cancel last minute
I was so lost in my head and scared to be in the pop breads
I was trapped in a hatred and your life seemed so awesome
I never thought for a second my voice was in your head
"Girl, you walk like a bitch" when I was ten, someone said that
And it's just self defense until you're building a weapon
She believed my projection and now I totally get it
Forgot that inside that icon there's still a young girl from Essex
quick updates in case you DO show up (may add more)
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1. ugh i don't STAN anyone! I just happened to deep dive Shady's discog recently (for reasons I'd love to share soon) and he has some well-written songs I relate to!
2. don't worry, i wasn't hurt or anything, i just had to walk away...
breaking your promise to stop making me use wpop, then calling me abusive and attacking me in that one other thread, it was the last straw for me and i couldn't handle it anymore, so i cut off 4chan for months on end and occasionally popped up.
genuinely, i hold no hard feelings about anything, just an explanation
3. despite your allegations, I haven't seriously considered offing myself for almost a full YEAR, and my last serious breakdown was in April. regardless, I genuinely do regret putting so much burdens on you, fortunately me and my life standings have much improved since then!
4. btw i lost a good amount of weight the past few months :)) proud of it
5. ignore those hoes, I believed you to be Supermodel-perfect since day one <3
]sleep tight[/fortune]
oh, and happy holidays! >>11937486
>pop breads
?
*sip*
>>11937543
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*sip*
1337 hax0rz detected
Your fortune: Reply hazy, try again >>11937543
i know this isn’t my business to pry into but i’ve seen both of you whispering to each other in public for long enough to make me curious
all you seem to do is repeat some constant cycle of reaching out to one another, like you’re endlessly floating away, desperately clinging to a flimsy piece of string, hoping for the other person to pull you in, but you never get anywhere and nothing ever happens and there’s never a satisfying conclusion, what’s up with that?
Your fortune: Good Luck >>11937608
https://genius.com/Eminem-crazy-in-
trips >>11937486
trolli trolli trolli 360 >>11938099
5 puh ee hoi! >>11938678
hoi! loi what the FUCK is this thread >>11939144
I wouldn't worry about it dubs TLDRq;;q;q;;
thase oram y faverorite >>11937608
jesus we’re just 4chan penpals checking in on each other via esforce because it’s a board we both like, gosh. excuse you. >>11939489
but why do you communicate in vague messages that only make sense if the other person knows what to look for >>11939489
truuuue
also welcome!
https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/tin
>>11937543
1.)ooh i’d love to hear! it’s fine, i totally understand, everyone loves em and i get it. he’s very relatable, especially the way he deals with angry or retributive themes! it’s just the kind of hipster i am and my taste, never been a fan for a few diff reasons.
2.)
3.)so relieved to hear that! the way things are going, i hope that’s something we don’t have to worry about ever again!
very happy to know life has been looking up for you!! and honestly, at the risk of sounding really crass, bitchy and narcissistic, THIS is what i wanted from you all along. and i was kind of nudging you in this direction basically ever since we started talking on a regular basis and then more intimately in DMs, like, i just wanted you to be a fully independent, happy person with your own life, regardless of me. like that was a big source of tension and anxiety in our relationship and for me personally, the codependency, sometimes slightly obsessive maybe? vibes i was getting, and feeling like your happiness depended on me and our relationship.
4.) OMG im so proud of you!!! yay!!! whatcha been doing? cardio? dieting? medicine from the doctor? either way that’s amazing!! keep going!!! even though you’re always beautiful no matter what :))
5.)thank you. as much as i’ve whined about you showing me too much affection, you’ve always made me feel really good about myself, like a superstar.
i just.. idk.. i think im losing faith in monogamy. it’s already something humans probs never did naturally, and in todays society it feels harder than ever to maintain…
still listening to music? pop music? :3 (besides eminem) video games? >>11939494
humans have a unique ability for abstract thinking
mwah >>11937701
werm?
gwermy wernm?
>>11938099
>>11938141
bupping tht
>>11939548
>just wanted you to be a fully independent, happy person with your own life, regardless of me. like that was a big source of tension and anxiety in our relationship and for me personally, the codependency, sometimes slightly obsessive maybe? vibes i was getting, and feeling like your happiness depended on me and our relationship
no you're right, it was a bad problem
the time off + other goals in life have really helped my paranoid feelings of codependence
oh, and a decrease in junk foods by a lil bit helps with the brain too! (my plan was simply... calorie deficit)
glad you seem to have more faith in me... i'll see to it that you'll like me enough to add me back before this thread dies!
>>11939548
>just.. idk.. i think im losing faith in monogamy. it’s already something humans probs never did naturally, and in todays society it feels harder than ever to maintain…
at the risk of sounding catty, haha...
judging from certain things you did with other posters in the past that really made me upset and hurt..
i knew it would never last with you, that you were never the type for that, and i was waiting for the moment to just say that to you lol...
could go on and on about all the seething i felt over the years at your displays of hypocrisy...
*Tarantino voice*
but I won't :&)
I guess that's our intro out the way right...
yes I very much do still listen and play various things!
these mobb deep fellas are alright, and I got on a Civ V kick again (a curse, really), would you like to share things too? >>11939549
i’ve intruded too much already, so the last thing i’ll say is... i think one of you has a much higher abstract thinking ability than the other, and that makes it feel like there’s a gap preventing both of you from genuinely connecting to each other And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today
I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, I'ma face my demons
I'm manning up, I'ma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now
It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly, I probably did it subliminally for YOU
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
No more beef lingers, no more drama from now on
I promise to focus solely on handlin' my responsibilities as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and RAISE it
>>11939561
>no you're right, it was a bad problem
the time off + other goals in life have really helped my paranoid feelings of codependence
oooh wow, this is impressive, i appreciate you owning that and not using it as an opportunity to get snippy.
>oh, and a decrease in junk foods by a lil bit helps with the brain too
are you almost ready to go vegan yet friend…!? :>
>glad you seem to have more faith in me... i'll see to it that you'll like me enough to add me back before this thread dies!
no need to rush…. but i will say based off observing what you’ve said so far vs how our conversations went for like the last year or two, i feel like im starting to see the changes i’ve been waiting on all this time.
>judging from certain things you did with other posters in the past that really made me upset and hurt..
i knew it would never last with you, that you were never the type for that
ugh, that was a very complicated situation. i can be a bit of a flirt with people sometimes, maybe too much in some cases, but like, you don’t understand! i was very loyal to this man, and, idk maybe I AM simply being insecure for feeling this way, a lot of people are telling me it’s normal, like most guys are porn addicts or w/e, do you think i should be concerned if he’s pleasuring himself to girls that don’t look like me..?
mobb deep is very cool! shook ones pt 2 is probably the greatest east coast hip hop track ever, the infamous is good and i also like their album juvenile hell. i prefer east to west as far as the 90s scene goes but imo the south had the best rap scene of the 90s.
ah, civ 5! the classic.. it’s been a while since i’ve played it, mostly just play civ6 since it came out, now civ7 is right around the corner and im super excited for it!! i will say though, civ 5 has the best leader screens, and me as well as many other fans feel like they are regressing in terms of the leader screens, especially with the civ7 teasers they’ve released.
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you might be right? >>11939592
>do you think i should be concerned if he’s pleasuring himself to girls that don’t look like me..?
yes
giant red flag, get away from him now
:)
[waiting for rest of the post so I don't overwhelm you]
>>11939561
>would you like to share things too?
yesss!!
did i mention i finally gave in to the college meme and decided to go to school?! i don’t wanna do soulless corporate work for the rest of my life. i plan on majoring in art history, the eventual goal is to become a curator or archivist at the art institute of chicago :D
both of my parents were seriously ill in the last two years, first my dad in 2023 and this year it’s mom, that’s been really stressful and taken it’s emotional toll on me but thankfully, my mom is doing better now.
i’ve been dabbling in watercolor and oil painting, as well as sketching, trying to teach myself how to visual art basically, and im happy with the progress im making!!
got another, better promotion at my job, now i have my own little office and i get to tell the low level managers at our security company how to do their job hehe, which is fine bc they all like me, but yeah i’ve been splurging a lil bit with the money im making now. i bought a 2024 camry!!! my first brand new car! moved into a better apartment with the bf and have been decorating/furnishing like a madwoman. even more so with the holidays recently. i feel like such a functional adult decked out with christmas decorations, even down to the themed paper plates and napkins! lul
hmm let’s see, i’ve been listening to a lot of pop this year, sabrina, charli ofc, the new album and unreleased stuff by SOPHIE, magdalena bay, our girl chappy!! oh and i’ve also been listening to more UK drill and this genre called “jerk” which is pretty cool, very dense rhythmic, high tempo kind of hip hop derivative genre, it’s really great!
https://youtu.be/hOPz_Sg4VVg
dying to know how you felt about joker 2 btw!
oh and video games! have you heard of this game called “baldurs gate 3”? i started playing that ALOT this year.
>>11939592
>are you almost ready to go vegan yet friend…!? :>
I see no reason to... value milk products way too much
>>11939592
>prefer east to west as far as the 90s scene goes but imo the south had the best rap scene of the 90s.
pic related funny haha
send me some if you'd like
reminder that if you add me back I'll go back to making your music recs a mission (I also intend on keeping my promise of playing Metroid Fusion if I'm added back!)
haven't looked too deeply into Civ 7 yet, hope it runs on my lil ol computers lawl
>>11939650
>and decided to go to school?!
pobrecito!
(deeply admire the inspiration though, glad you're happy about it dear, especially with you learning new skills!!)
>both of my parents were seriously ill in the last two years, first my dad in 2023 and this year it’s mom, that’s been really stressful and taken it’s emotional toll on me but thankfully, my mom is doing better now
very glad (many of my friends have dealt with the same sort of things too lately)
>*reads the rest of your paragraph whole sitting in the same break room*
sigh, your life seems so awesome...
*starts crying for an hour*
all good stuff you mentioned in the music field
was underwhelmed by Joker 2 and thought it was a failure which is a shame cause I was rooting for it...
>>11939650
>astarion is so sexy!! o//o
so you're eyeing others too huh?!
it's a MUTUALLY toxic relationship, get out now!!
*starts actually crying again*
sorry, ill timing... just been so desolate and lonely for so long after years of utter emotional hell, I'm only just NOW seeing a light at the end so I can progress in life, but it took so much time of torment...
I guess ultimately, what I'm seeking is...
what could happen between us... that could make these few years worth it... having my soulmate ripped away from me out of nowhere, for reasons I was never warned of, after I was repeatedly promised such a great future with you...
after years of trying my hardest to purge myself of my worst impulses, experimenting with so many different meds and remedies, and showing so much growth, just to be repeatedly told over and over "fuck you, you're still not good enough"
after being trapped (actually trapped) in a job that completely prevents me from living a normal social life or even fulfilling my creativity as satisfyingly as I want to
sorry to trauma dump, hope you don't hate me for it
I dunno
I just want my good buddy to return and I never want to be bullied by that poster again...
My life is full of empty promises and broken dreams
I'm hopin' things look up, but there ain't no job openings
I feel discouraged, hungry and malnourished
Livin' in this house with no furnace, unfurnished
And I'm sick of workin' dead-end jobs with lame pay
But fuck it, if you know the rules to the game, play
'Cause when we die, we know we all goin' the same way
'Cause it's cool to be the player, but it sucks to be the fan
When all you need is bucks to be the man, plus a luxury sedan
Or comfortable and roomy in a 6
But they threw me in the mix with all these gloomy lunatics
Who walk around depressed, and smoke a pound of cess a day
And yesterday went by so quick, it seems like it was just today
My daughter wants to throw the ball, but I'm too stressed to play
Live half my life and throw the rest away
That's rock bottom, when this life makes you mad enough to kill
That's rock bottom, when you want somethin' bad enough to steal
That's rock bottom, when you feel like you've had it up to here
'Cause you mad enough to scream, but you sad enough to tear >>11939651
>>11939660
noooo dear, you’re fine! it’s okay, don’t feel bad for expressing yourself. i know there are still a lot of unresolved feelings and other things going on in both of our lives.
im v tired right now, woke up at 6am today. went in at 7. got off at 5 (bleh), got home, changed, went to the store, came home, made din, cleaned the dishes, took the trash out, started a load of laundry and just started talking to you, now it’s already time for bed!! and i originally had some youtube videos to watch as well as a little bit of a book to read before bed. but it’s okay, atleast im off thursday-saturday now.
we’ll continue this tomorrow!
-hug- nini <3 >>11939686
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big hug
it's okay, hope we can expand on it all but my core emotional FEELINGS are out. just hit me like a truck hearing how much more accomplished you were than me while you were gone... and it also made me think about the things we COULD'VE done together with all that time, had it NOT been thrown down the toilet....
but who knows... maybe if we become close again, you'll be able to make me feel better about everything thing over time
want you to hear this when you return:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sO_
probably the most Literally Me song in all human existence...
]sleep tight[/fortune]
(did my dumb ass really forget to attach the pic related) >>11939755 (nice dubs)
the worst mistake you have ever made in your life. [fortune color="#0000FF" hidden="
so is it okay if i pretend like you're with me in bed again...
]sleep tight[/fortune] > good morning [fortune color="#0000FF" hidden="
cause.. cumming to celebrities means too much for me to wanna give up, it's like a religion for me (and hopefully you would enjoy them WITH me!)
at the same time though, i truly mean it when i say you're uniquely gorgeous and i'd be very willing to make myself EXCLUSIVE to you in real life, if that were something you wanted
]sleep tight[/fortune] . >>11939823
yes c:
>>11940190
not at all! i feel like it’s a bit of a different thing, us worshipping and admiring our pop goddesses, and tbf i still don’t know if i should be mad/jealous about the p*rn / OF girls he looks at, but like, it feels like a different level than just a celeb crush you know? so idk >>11940800
cool :)
>>11940800
>>11940800
cool :)
>OF girls
Onlyfans generally entails DMing and forming para social relationships with the girl of attraction, juss sayin! what the heck else ...
>>11939686
free on Friday or Saturday by any chance? :o
boy... using a dulled can opener is so annoying!
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guess I can expand my thoughts from before just a tiny bit on break...
Yeah, I think Joker 2 had really admirable goals, rejecting the incel-ish types that gravitate towards it and made it clear again that the main point was that Arthur needed help, and I'll admit the musical element WAS a bold move... It just falters for the simple fact that Phillips has no sense for the musical genre, and that alone kills the whole movie (although the Carpenters - Close To You number comes closest to working!). Probably shouldn't have have been made, but it's a respectable failure at least.
>https://youtu.be/hOPz_Sg4VVg
not bad !
boy, are you so ahead in the future compared to me, I still need to understand stuff like Run DMC firs lol
and... I do know about Baldurs Gate 3, it won GOTY right? never played any of that series though, wonder what draws you to it buddy! [fortune color="#0000FF" hidden="
me @ my good buddy enpee :')
]clean the dishes tight[/fortune] haven't had a nosebleed in a long time...
>>11940823
friday maybe; saturday, sure!
>>11941242
dulled can opener hm? what kind is it? i have the one that clamps on and you twist the little handle thingy. my grandma had an electric one from the 60s that never went dull. i didn’t know they could become dull!
>>11941242
ahhhh, so you appreciate what todd was trying to do, you just think it was executed poorly, instead of having a kneejerk emotional reaction to it in a negative way? i can respect that take, but, i actually enjoyed it! the message ofc, and the execution wasn’t so bad imo, thought lady gaga was phenomenal!! im really happy it exists and would take it a million and one times over some cheesy generic blockbuster marvel epic flavored rendition of the joker story
it’s interesting how polarizing some of my favorite new releases in music and cinema have been, like the SOPHIE album… i was so disgusted by the general reaction to that album..
>>11941242
>I still need to understand stuff like Run DMC firs lol
https://youtu.be/CIQ1s4lXi0E
this song is all you need to know about run dmc, oh, and they collabed with aerosmith in the 80s one time and it made tons of boomers piss themselves with excitement.
but no, you’ve come quite far on your hip-hop journey since we first met!
>do know about Baldurs Gate 3, it won GOTY right? never played any of that series though, wonder what draws you to it buddy
it did win g(f)oty!! yeah, i hadnt played the series before either, or D&D which it’s based off apparently. a friend bought it for me and kept bugging me to play it, so i did and actually kinda liked the storyline and dialogue! interesting characters.
>>11941263
it can be hard to admit but everyone has one.. ;>>
>>11941378
probably thanks to your improved health!!
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>>11941539
>what kind is it?
$5 Walmart one probably lol, lend me yours?
>>11941539
>im really happy it exists and would take it a million and one times over some cheesy generic blockbuster marvel epic flavored rendition of the joker story
absolutely. forgot to mention, Gaga's eyebrows were so *unh*
but considering the way it kinda sunk the Todd saga's reputation on the normies, I wonder if it was really worth it
what a flipping banger Run DMC song there..
>but no, you’ve come quite far on your hip-hop journey since we first met!
thanks I'm still an utter musical dilettante lol
Glad you enjoyed that game, I'm more influenced to try it sometime now
check out pic related though, a game reccomendation from me to YOU teehee
]clean the dishes tight[/fortune]
can't wait for Saturday then >>11941539
Any wu-tang takes btw? [fortune color="#0000FF" hidden="
>>11941539
OH SHOOT I FORGOT THIS PART
so, I only heard a tiny portion of Sophie's latest, ambient stuff right? and I'm guessing that the masses didn't give it a chance because there being less crazy noisy stuff?
we'll talk about it when I finish it!
]clean the dishes tight[/fortune] > [fortune color="#0000FF" hidden="
mornin'
going strong in Day 4 of Question Mark
hope i didn't blunder with you for any reason in our talks :)
]eat the brekkie tight[/fortune] right knee pointy and hurty :(
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while we're on the subject of Gaga...
i'm not sure if i shared this hot take before but... this song is criminally underrated + one of my favorite songs i've ever heard:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jmM
precursor of PC music, makes me cry everytime. people always think of the louder party songs of the post-recession era of pop, but the melancholy of this song more poignantly captures that moment in history, all the dreams that fell apart
]eat the brekkie tight[/fortune]
less gushing for gaga for now
more *cumming* for gaga
]eat the brekkie tight[/fortune] every /hr/ thread has a literal klan rally showing up constantly derailing the place
most regular 4chan threads do, actually
can't wait to never use this site again... [fortune color="#0000FF" hidden="
second one for good measure
]eat the brekkie tight[/fortune] . [fortune color="#0000FF" hidden="
didn't win a prize at the christmas giveaway this year
]eat the brekkie tight[/fortune] [fortune color="#0000FF" hidden="
nini
i wanna talk witcha about Nico soon
]eat the brekkie tight[/fortune] > [fortune color="#0000FF" hidden="
wanna brainwash you to being a goonslut for her so bad
]eat the brekkie tight[/fortune] [fortune color="#0010FF" hidden="
]eat the brekkie tight[/fortune] [fortune color="#0010FF" hidden="
don't worry i didn't need to nap that much anyways, played games instead
]eat the brekkie tight[/fortune] [fortune color="#0010FF" hidden="
hope i'm not overwhelming with too many things ... but if you had to rank or choose, which would you rather play or are best familiar with:
street fighter, tekken, smash, soulcaliber, mortal kombat
]sleep tight[/fortune] >
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